The World As Seen From The Eyes of the Autistic Child
I am the autistic child who looks just fine and healthy. When I was born, I was perfect with all of my fingers and toes, but as I grew, something seemed to be just a bit different. Even though I am really smart, I still find it difficult to be in school with the other kids. I do not like it when the teachers or other kids say that I am just lazy and could participate if I really wanted to. I really do want to, but I find it hard to get started. I get scared really easy so I find great comfort in a set schedule, where repeating the same rituals over and over again calms and soothes me. I like to wear my clothes very loose as I do not like to be confined in tight shoes or clothes. I have heard my teachers and parents saying that I am an autistic child although I do not understand what that means.
As the autistic child, sudden movements and noises can make me run from the room screaming and waving my hands as I try to rid myself of the unwanted distress. No one can begin to imagine the panic I feel inside when I fall into a tantrum or freak out over something that is trivial to someone else. I like to keep my world simple, or so it seems for me. I like to do the same things at the same times everyday and if all goes the way I think it should then my day will be a good one. If for some reason my routine is set off a bit, I will most likely go into a panic, worrying about the same thing happening for many weeks to come. Routine is a comfort to me, I do not like change.
The Autistic Child and Social Interactions
Many people look at me, the autistic child, and feel sorry as I cannot make friends easily, but I really am happier by myself, since I know that I will go by my routine and I know what I will do and when I will do it. I do not know what others will do and that makes it hard for me to be around others playing. So please don’t feel sorry for me not having any friends, I really am happier doing things on my own. We can all learn to deal with my condition with the help of doctors and therapists but please don’t try to rush things, since I will do things when I am ready and only then. I like to take everything in, and even though I may not say much, you can bet I am learning faster than you can imagine. Who knows, maybe one day I will show you just how smart an autistic child can be by doing something amazing with my mind.